we can do something when you get back they can't keep you in kyoto forever
[ to say rika has a quiet fury would be accurate. nothing quite like her almost infantilized cursed form, and yet reminiscent in its visceral quality. it scares most of the adults with the exception of gojou satoru. it is a bit hard to tell with nanami kento who is a recent 'return' according to that one, though he's not there nearly as often. 'trial basis' gojou had said, if she recalls correctly though his tone more or less made it a done deal.
she doesn't care.
but she remembers the ones who bare their teeth as if she doesn't know the difference between a smile and a threat. gojou and nanami are not those kinds, and for that she credits them.
yuuta's absence on his birthday is the work of other more entrenched traditions and fears. she knows; they both know.
she misses him terribly. it hurts in physicality in a way she would never explain to anyone, as if the sheer distance and time chips away at her. there is a tension too, the thread of connection between them red as fate as blood and able to be liquid or brittle. held too tight.
'happy birthday' she says and means: i miss you.
you should be here.
in the end her loathing of certain people will never hold a candle to her love for yuuta.
okay!! that can be my real birthday celebration because it doesn't really feel real out here...
i don't think they will im pretty sure they said i'll be here for a week or two? and if they try to keep me here any longer, well... i guess i'll figure out something!
( which is easier said than done. yuuta has always been possessed of a gentle soul, regardless of the near-infinite depth of cursed energy that he has (and now shares with rika, regardless of how much distance separates them). his idea of making a stand against the school administrators keeping him away from her was probably "make several soft-spoken protestations and complaints" before lapsing back into uncertain silence. they have always complemented one another in that way — rika stood up for yuuta with ferocious intensity when he didn't have the nerve, and he would appeal to her good will and bridge between her and others when rough patches arose.
it's so much harder for them to be that to one another with so much distance between them. it's a unique sort of challenge, especially considering how long it's been since they've been apart for this long.
loneliness is somehow worse when surrounded by others. he tries to be open, tries to be friendly with the new students he's introduced to, but... his guard is always partially up, a piece of his mind and his heart always with rika. hoping she's doing well, worrying that something might happen. the lion's share of their elders' ire seems to fall on her — especially once they had scoured through both of their family histories to try to find some explanation for what happened...
it's fortunate that it'd so quickly become obvious that their fates are intertwined with one another; if something happened to her, he would know, because he would unravel too. )
do you remember what we did for my birthday two years ago?
( it had been unseasonably warm, and rika's grandmother had been in a lax enough mood to let rika go with yuuta and his family to the beach. )
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they can't keep you in kyoto forever
[ to say rika has a quiet fury would be accurate. nothing quite like her almost infantilized cursed form, and yet reminiscent in its visceral quality. it scares most of the adults with the exception of gojou satoru. it is a bit hard to tell with nanami kento who is a recent 'return' according to that one, though he's not there nearly as often. 'trial basis' gojou had said, if she recalls correctly though his tone more or less made it a done deal.
she doesn't care.
but she remembers the ones who bare their teeth as if she doesn't know the difference between a smile and a threat. gojou and nanami are not those kinds, and for that she credits them.
yuuta's absence on his birthday is the work of other more entrenched traditions and fears. she knows; they both know.
she misses him terribly. it hurts in physicality in a way she would never explain to anyone, as if the sheer distance and time chips away at her. there is a tension too, the thread of connection between them red as fate as blood and able to be liquid or brittle. held too tight.
'happy birthday' she says and means: i miss you.
you should be here.
in the end her loathing of certain people will never hold a candle to her love for yuuta.
that's just how it is. ]
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that can be my real birthday celebration
because it doesn't really feel real out here...
i don't think they will
im pretty sure they said i'll be here for a week or two?
and if they try to keep me here any longer, well... i guess i'll figure out something!
( which is easier said than done. yuuta has always been possessed of a gentle soul, regardless of the near-infinite depth of cursed energy that he has (and now shares with rika, regardless of how much distance separates them). his idea of making a stand against the school administrators keeping him away from her was probably "make several soft-spoken protestations and complaints" before lapsing back into uncertain silence. they have always complemented one another in that way — rika stood up for yuuta with ferocious intensity when he didn't have the nerve, and he would appeal to her good will and bridge between her and others when rough patches arose.
it's so much harder for them to be that to one another with so much distance between them. it's a unique sort of challenge, especially considering how long it's been since they've been apart for this long.
loneliness is somehow worse when surrounded by others. he tries to be open, tries to be friendly with the new students he's introduced to, but... his guard is always partially up, a piece of his mind and his heart always with rika. hoping she's doing well, worrying that something might happen. the lion's share of their elders' ire seems to fall on her — especially once they had scoured through both of their family histories to try to find some explanation for what happened...
it's fortunate that it'd so quickly become obvious that their fates are intertwined with one another; if something happened to her, he would know, because he would unravel too. )
do you remember what we did for my birthday two years ago?
( it had been unseasonably warm, and rika's grandmother had been in a lax enough mood to let rika go with yuuta and his family to the beach. )